LOVE

NO IM NOT READY TO BE A MOM

I DONT WANT TO HAVE A BABY

I DONT WANT TO BE PREGNANT

I KNOW I HAVE TO GROW UP NOW

I KNOW ITS GOING TO BE HARD, LIKE REALLY HARD

I KNOW IM GOING TO WANT TO GIVE UP

I KNOW AT SOME POINT IM GOING SO CRY SO HARD

MY HEAD HURTS AND IM GOING TO WANT TO CRAWL TO MY OWN MOMMY

AND BE THE BABY AGAIN

BUT I WONT BE ABLE TO

I KNOW IM GOING TO HAVE TO GIVE MY LAST TO SOMEOONE ELSE

I DONT WANT TO BE STUCK IN THE HOUSE WHILE MY FRIENDS

GO OUT

YES MY LIFE IS GOING TO GO FRM CRUISE MODE, TO MANUAL IN A MATTER OF SECONDS

AND NO I CANT LET MY MOM DO IT FOR ME

AND YES I WILL BE AFRAID

AND YES I AM SCARED NOW

AND NO IVE NEVER TOOK CARE OF ANYTHING ELSE BESIDES ME

I UNDERSTAND I WILL HAVE TO WORK.SCHOOL.AND STAY UP ALL NIGHT WITH

ANOTHER LITTLE LIFE

AND STILL PASS, AND NOT CALL INTO TO WORK BECAUSE IM TIRED

I KNOW THIS ISNT LIKE HIGHSCHOOL AND I KANT GET A DR'S NOTE

OUT OF THE MESS I GOT MYSELF INTO

AND THEN IM GOING TO CRY AGAIN

BUT I KNOW I HAVE TO BE THE STRONG ONE NOW

YES IM ALONE IN ALL THIS

NO THE FATHER LEFT, ILL BE DOING THIS BYMYSELF

YES I UNDERSTAND THAT MAKES EVERYTHING TEN TIMES WORSE

YES I UNDERSTAND I WONT BE DATING LIKE A YOUNG WOMAN CAN

AT MY AGE

NO IM NOT OK WITH THAT

YES I AM DEPRESSED AND ANGRY AT THE SAME TIME

NO IM NOT GETTING AN ABORTION TO AVOID ALL THE PAIN

I COULDNT LIVE WITH MYSELF

IS THAT THE BEST DECISION FOR ME. MAYBE NOT

AM I SURE ?

NO IM NOT,

BUT I AM SURE IM NOT GOING TO LET THAT WAY ON MY HEART

WHILE U ALL SMILE. AND IM DYING INSIDE

NO I DONT KNOW HOW TO BE A PARENT

YES, I DO KNOW WHAT THE MOST IMPORTANT THING

YOU CAN GIVE A CHILD